Last week was supposed to be my final week at SWI, and even this week should have been an extra one. However, on Monday I sunk into a deep depression. I did not believe I would recover. The previous night, that was Sunday April 2, I was unable to sleep all night even after I took 2 mg of Xanax. This was a great shock because my dosage on Xanax had been 0.5mg. I was so agitated that I told Gary I wanted to jump out of the window. Gary said: “That is good. We are at the ground floor.” Then Gary gave me an IV to try to calm me down, but the IV did nothing but make me flush. Anyway, in reaction to it, I threw up a little, and I was too agitated to even sit on a chair, and I was too fatigued to stand up. I was also hungry but I could not eat anything. Gary believed it was all due to additional old biofilm breaking open, and Dr. Sponaugle said, given the fact that I was nauseous, it should be petrochemical. Dr. Sponaugle thought this might be old biofilm dating back to my childhood time in China with the old pollutants wrapped into the biofilm. Biofilm is like tree rings with the treatment unwrapping it from outside in. It is now hard to see when all of this will end. The most encouraging thing is when Dr. Sponaugle said to me: “Jun, when you get to the end of your biofilm, you will feel like you are 25. My last Fry Labs test looked good, so they believe I might go home and let my immune system deal with the rest. Gary told me my immune system is now 10 times better than when I first arrived. How can I face all this: after all the hard work, I now feel more junk than on my first day at SWI ! My misery drew many fellow patients’ attention: they came by to comfort me and prayed for me. I was so moved to be surrounded by these people who not only understand me but who also fought to get their lives back at the same time.
On Wednesday Gary ordered a new Fry Labs test and infectious disease panel to see what was going on. On Wednesday afternoon, quite by chance, Dr. Sponaugle suggested that I should move in to share a Sponaugle apartment with a new patient named Michelle. This helps me a great deal, and it also gives me a lot of stability. My health started to decline immediately before I moved away from another apartment at the same location, and my stress level shot sky high. It also coincided with the time that Gary told me to stop the parasite kill supplements because I was about to go home. However, I gradually started to have a 48 hours cycle, that is, for 24 hours I appeared to be more normal; then for another 24 hours I would be extremely depressed. All of a sudden I thought about maybe the parasites have a 48 hours life cycle, and that is why I am feeling and behaving in such a weird way. On Thursday afternoon, I started to take the parasite kill, and on Friday my depression seemed to have lifted a little. Now it is Sunday. In the past 3 days, even when I feel depressed, the cycle has largely stopped. I am still observing myself, and if this is the case, the logical question is: how do I extinguish all the remaining parasites? Some patients said parasites are the hardest to kill. I will see what shows up in my Fry Labs test.Another thing that I am thinking to do is to build a Chinese Website for SWI, now that I have such confidence in Dr. Sponaugle’s treatment protocol. This has been a long week for me with a lot of thoughts running through my damaged brain. I still believe my future is bright, and I am thankful for all the payers I have received from others.
