Oh well, finally Gary told me this past week that my tests indicate that I am good to go home to heal. It was sort of like the impossible news had finally arrived. I almost had been trying to numb my nerves when thinking about going home, but just enough not to lose hope. Unfortunately I had been feeling very bad since I heard this good news from Gary. Once again I was facing a “dark hole” depression, and I then tried to figure out what caused it. At first I thought it might be that I skipped out taking 5 HTP from time to time, because genetically I will always have serotonin deficiency. I thought by retaking the appropriate amount of 5 HTP I might feel well. That did not happen. My husband Laird suspected that the stress I was under to find a new apartment and to move within a very short period of time caused my body to react in a bad way. But last night I realized that I did not take progesterone for a few days. I had not properly arranged my supplements when I moved to the new apartment. I took the progesterone pill last night and my depression seems to have lifted today. However, I am still very tired and my heart rate is still quite high. I will have to discuss this with Gary next week to confirm when to go home. I can’t wait to go home, but if it is to my advantage to stay here one more week, I will. I will ask for a more thorough weekly blood tests also. I know after I go home, it will be the start of my healing. It takes time for my body to heal and regain all my strength.
This past four months has not been easy. I am not in the position to draw any firm conclusions yet. I hope the remaining days will be good. I have made some great friends here, and I will remain in good contact with them. I have learned a lot about health and how the human body works. I translated two important papers into Chinese for Dr. Sponaugle, but it has been in fact a perfect opportunity for me to learn. I should not be upset when other people fail to understand what I have been through, but still I will offer to help those who are in desperate need.
I am now planning on how I should continue to detox at home and how to adopt a healthy life style. I thank God to have guided me thus far, and I will continue to have my good faith in God.